God and I at counceling

So I decided to give us a new chance. Again. We never were in a fight as bad as the last one. Long silence on my end. But if you’re sinking you automatically call out for the person you love the most. So the faith cometh by hearing… Sit there and listen to each other….

Dear 15 years old me…

I wish I could change the path you are walking on right now, wish I could tell you what to avoid and what not, but like I understood time traveling from watching too much science fiction series and movies, I know that if I could and did, I would change my own present and I…

The Life of the Party

I make friends easily. When I want to. I can be the nicest person you have ever met. When I want to. You call fall in love me. When I want to. I bring people to laugh. When I want to. But mostly I don’t want to. People disappoint. People betray and out of my…

No…

“Why don’t you want to dance?” “Because I don’t want to.” “Why?” “Because I don’t want to.” “Come dance with me.” “No.” “Ahhh you’re boring.”

Last Steps

„This is our land“ „We are the people“ Shouting people. I can feel the hatred in their voices and their words represented nightmares of my childhood. I thought this part of my life was over. Some of them were pointing at me and their faces were about to explode. Liquid flew from their mouths, their…

Dia de los muertos

On the 2nd of November Mexicans celebrate the Day of the Dead by accessoirizing the graves of their loved ones with flowers and a lot of candles. I went to Morelia because it is the “place to be” for that day. And even though or maybe because I always had a special relationship with death,…

Fearless

I am so many types of bitches, I lost count. I am a bitch. Indeed. But please don’t misunderstand this word or my definition of it. I am not a slut. In fact I don’t run around trying to hush male attention. I am not a furious woman. I can be, but I prefer not…

The voices in my life

Voice „You are unpredictable“ my brother „Always be aware that you are a black woman in a white man society“ my parents “You are not the outcome I have hoped for” my mother “You are my little angel” my grandmother “You are something” a friend “Either people love you or hate you. There is no…

People and Fashion

I have always tried to understand people, to categorize the world. Trying very hard to find answers to questions nobody seems to ask anymore and to fit this in my point of view of the world. I’m trying very hard not to find answers that please me but more the truth even when I know…

Back to Spring

Semana Santa (Springbreak) is over and yesterday was my first day back in school. It is unbelievable how with one step in one particular building, the body falls iinto another state and forgets the relaxed happy last days. I wrote my first exam at 7 in the morning and stayed like every monday till 9…

Whisper

Her tongue looked out between her lips And slowly wets first the under and then the upper lip And disappears again in its rightful place While she presses her lips against each other And swallows her saliva She takes an almost unnoticed deep breath   His eyes never left her face Trying hard to give…